i'm sorry :(

hello there..

currently i have the feeling of guilt toward myself..erk..actually toward my body..heheh mcm pelik ja bunyi dia kan..hewhew..but that's the truth!!! the ugly truth..

these past few days i noticed some of my friends keep saying to me that i lost my weight and it seemed quite obvious..however i didn't feel that way..i thought it's just the same as the previous me..but i did feel a little bit weak or something like didn't have enough energy..hmm

thus, i have a thick guilty feeling toward my body..because i know i didn't take healthy diet recently..huaaaa

dear body,

i'm so sorry that i keep skipping my breakfast these two weeks..

i'm so sorry that i always have a little portion of rice during lunch because i have lost my appetite..

i'm so sorry that i often skip my dinner..

i'm so sorry that i always eat less nutritious food...

i feel bad now..grrrr..it's ok..tomorrow i'll hunt for food!!!!yeahh..trying to gain weight..weheee

MY 1st School Based Experience..tehee he he

I went to langkawi for one week last two weeks..actually i went there for my School Based Experience (SBE)..heheh SBE is something like we need to do thorough observation at school that we chose and kind of early exposure to the ‘school word’ to us as we are going to be a teacher soon..heheh so I chose SK Padang Matsirat..weheee

taraaaaaaa!!!

 The SBE thing started on 31^st March(Sunday) until 4^th April(Monday) and I was not alone there. They were two other friends accompanied me..heheh Biha and Qilah..oo thanks a lot  Qilah for letting me stayed at your house..heheh klu x merempat la aku..ngee

kikiki..

when I arrived at the school on the first day, I saw a signboard of Beras Terbakar..then I realised that ooo rupanya Beras Terbakar nih depan skulah ni ja pown..lol..never realised it before..so apa lagi kan..there was one day that I immediately crossed the road after school hours and bought souvenirs at Beras Terbakar..haha mudah keja! Besides, I enjoyed everything at that school..the whole environment was good and the most important thing was the canteen..haha..it’s totally cheap man..huhu maklumla..bila merantau ni kena pndai bajet..hikhik

see!!!told ya..hahaha

There’re so many things that I need to write..so to simplify..i just upload the photos kay..hikhik kan setiap gambar ada ceritanya!!!hahah

There's my favourite part when i went to the Special Education class..seeing those innocent faces that required special needs melted my heart and I always said something like “kenapala dulu aku x amek pendidikan khas hah?”..hihi I always love to know them deeper you know!!! They’re cute themselves J

team nasyid J 

tekun..just like me!haha

               
         

yeayy

fahmi..

awal..

           

        

so..thats all..nk smbung assignment..hehe daa..klu umur pnjang kita jumpa lagi J

~ADIOS~

helpLESS & hopeLESS

helloooo guys :)

first of all..i want to scream and shout and let it all out and scream and shout and let it out YEAAAAYYYYY!!!! motif? hehe because finally, it's weekend!!! rasa mcm nk lompat tinggi awan..and feel like huge load is slowly disappearing from my back...hmm actually these weekdays are more than tough weekdays for me..marathon in my room, for assignments, sport's day, BIG(bina insan guru) and many more..

but the saddest thing is the condition of my room (my bed and my study table) :(  it's HELPLESS and HOPELESS..full of papers, books, pillows are scattered around, blanket remains unfolded these past 2 days haih..tell u it's a real hopeless mess..

when im about to leave for class and coming back from class i feel so terrible and want to cry..it's not that i don't want to tidy up everything but im too tired and have not enough time this week..sometimes i feel like it's just a waste of energy since the tidiness will last only for 2 days and the chaos will take place again!!! phew..oh my..am i that bad?haha just imagine, yesterday i slept at almost 4am and woke up at 6.20am, rushing to finish up my assignments, draft assignment, iron my baju kurung and i accidentally struck the souvenir bags(also scattered around my locker) for lecturers for our BIG programme..thank god there was no mug broken!! and i was late 10 minutes today..the class started at 9am..luckily the lecturer was not entering the class yet!!!...hewheww hmm quite a challenging day, isn't it?hahaha

and just now my roommate just asked me "ni awat yg dok tang ni?" (pointing at my body splash on my study table) kakakaka..tahan gelak ja when she asked..and my peanut butter also on my study table!grrr things are put at the wrong place recently..hahaha alamak!!!mcm mna la nk kawin klu mcm ni.. :(

whatever it is..i believe that it's just random bad days not a bad life!!!think positive ok..heheh

ok now im waiting for my father to pick me up..im coming home!!!my mom was already off to langkawi and tomorrow my father will be going to kelantan..and im going to berjimba with my kepoh sisters,mak and abah..yeaayyy..

so wish u a happy weekend :) dont forget to tidy up your room!haha

daa...

A twenty - year - old LADY

Alhamdulillah..im officially 20 today..yeayyy!!!!but still can't believe it..haha
thanks to Allah for giving me the opportunity to stay alive until.now..for 20 years!!!Alhamdulillah :) quite a big number kan..hihi klu org tua ckap tu.."dh bley kawin dah"..haha

sometimes it comes to my mind that "..hmm..dh twenty..what should i do huh?"

well..i got the answers..haha

all i want is to be myself,

live life to the fullest,

be kind & humble, 

devoted to my family,

and of course to be a good servant of Allah :)

and i feel like thanks to infinity to my parents who always take care of me, educate me, love me since i was born, since i was a little kid ...

cant remember the year :( ..haha

miss all the gowns..haha

  

kecik2 pown dh pandai buat hidung kembang ok!  =D

 and until now, a lady :) hikhikhik

ngeee~

p/s : klu nk tmuntah tngok gmbar, sila p jauh2 ok.haha

waa..before i forget, thank you very very much for all the birthday wishes from my dearest family, friends,lecturers, etc. :)

may Allah bless all of us, 

grant us with happiness :)

~Assalamualaikum~